Expectations

For Claire: I have quit. I love you so much and, for you and your dying grandfather (as well as my own health), I have quit. This time it isn't a momentary inspiration, it's a life decision. Besides, there is no going back now. I don't want to be gasping for air while we climb the peaks of the Andes and trump through the virgin wilderness. And, on that note, for the record, I still want to go. My desire for Latin America has never wavered, though we should perhaps catch up on our plans. It gets closer every day.

For Swank: I have dedicated myself to art. I will be the best that I can be and I will see you again. Someday, when I am famous and selling my art for thousands apiece, you'll hear about it and smile. In the present, I am photographing all my best art and building a show for you.

For Brandon: I am reaching for the dream. I haven't quite got it yet, but I am looking and I am going to find it, only this time, I am not looking for you. Come by sometime to define life with Ms. Stafford and I again.

For Ms. Stafford: I love to hear you speak. You have an uncanny ability to tell me matter-of-factly everything I have been reaching for. You seem to have it all figured. I am so lucky to have you.

For Bess: I am still trying to figure out how to word our friendship. It's difficult because we are both so many different things mashed together. We are different from each other and yet we are parallel. I can build my thoughts off of you. I love you so much and I am here.

For Maggie: Breakfast Club, sugar cookies, 10:00pm, and you. These are my favorite nights. You let me blab and blab about my life's meaning and, even though you know I make no sense, you listen. You get me. I wish we spent more time together, but hey, I'll be seeing you tomorrow, even if I can't see you straight. LOVE!